I Always Come Back :)

Feeling contained in this box 

Surrounded by assumed timeline clocks 

What you should do, what you can't do

Ignore the very thing that makes you, you

The further I go, the more I turn blue

My soul is hurting, it has the flu 

The time stops now, I stand right here

Taking back my light and love, I feel clear 

Dear EveryBeauty,

It has been another lloooonng time, since I've written. I've gone a bit astray and I've cocooned into myself from some hardships I've been facing. All good "adulting" hardships, some much-needed experiences for me to grow and stretch my adult legs. But it seems I always come back to this.... writing and expressing and sharing (being creative).

If any of you have heard of Rebecca Campbell, she is amazing check her out! Because I have been going through soo many life changes, when I questioned myself like, "Should I even be doing this?" "Should I just suck it up and continue this suffering?" "What would happen if I delved into the unknown?" "I should stick with it because people will be disappointed if I don't" "I'm afraid of following what I want because people I love may judge me" "People will think I'm a quitter/loser" All these questions and fears came up like a ton of bricks! I felt this intense pressure to stick with it or else kind of mentality.

I agree with the mentality of pushing past your limits and finding new heights in your abilities you never knew you had. But if something in your life is sucking you dry and draining your energy like nobody's business, it's a sign to reassess if it's on the right path or time for a change.

Long story short, I typed in google "Follow your light" and what do you know Rebecca Campbell  showed up, here's the exact link that lit my soul up: https://rebeccacampbell.me/follow-what-lights-you-up/

When I read the post, my eyes lit up, my body relaxed, I felt this safety. This feeling I'm not alone and what I am feeling is valid. Everybody is different, that's a fact. Everybody deserves to live their unique life that suites their soul. This thought pattern that everybody has to graduate from high school, go to college/university, graduate from that, find a job, get a promotion, find a wife, kids, retire then die. This conveyor belt of picture perfect success is complete and utter bogus! That can work for some but not for everybody and for people that are suffering on this predetermined success chart, need to let it go and follow what they bloody LOOOVE!

Let me tell you, it takes balls and complete confidence to follow it. And I am seeing now that when you are afraid of something (unless it's a murderer/stalker, falling off a cliff along those lines) go towards it because I believe at the other end, there will be liberation to the tee. If you're not ready that's okay, it's all your life nobody can live it for you. That is also what I'm seeing, my life is my life to live nobody elses.

So in conclusion, when you are afraid to follow your light (what lights your soul up) step outside that ego fear and go for it, it's your soul calling to be embraced and to be shown to the world.

You are beautiful, powerful, magical love/light souls and your unique blueprint is needed!

(Thank you for your patience I am a bit rusty, in time I will get better💗💗💗)

Love you,

Ahn xoxoxox

p.s. I just read a past post that I wrote and I'm seeing now that I need to read what I write....  great reminders, goodness me! 🙈

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"Believe in yourself, listen to your gut, and do what you love."
Dylan Lauren 

Word of the Night

Incandescent

Adjective

1) producing light as a result of being made very hot